Matt'sUniverse

Being in NZ for almost 2 and a half years, I still don't understand how ppl behave, over here, ppl really do use their freedom of speech and I've meet so many different type of people and I am still not good at responding. I'm still my self, always answer bluntly and directly. Answering so fast, before the question is finish, i'm getting more arogant because I think I'm seeing the same problems over and over again and ppl always make a small problem into a big problem but its not the same problem. Gotta to change my mindset, renew my self, everyone is unique, got to keep reminding my self, got to stay sharp, got to keep going the extra mile!!! Never expecting in return, I'll don't need to expect anything from you cause I have a bigger source.


Biggest problem and always the same problem, stability and consistency, in this age, every1 want to be at the top, to be able to perform at a high level consistently, must be above average, sounds familiar. Before I move to the point, I was watching flash forward yesterday night, ep9 I think, there was this japanese women applying for a job at a super famous and well establish robotic company, she went for the interview and it was tough cuz it was all men but in the end she got the job. The next day, she went to work and her friend tell her that her boss needed her in a meeting urgently, she went in and saw a empty seat between all the top executive. Her boss said: finally, we can get started, please pour us some tea. I won't spoil anymore, you have to watch it for ur self, the point, which is more important, doing what you like to do or doing something very well but you absolute hate the job, you can be performing at a high level of pouring tea or do something you like very much.

Communication, I absolute hate it when some1 can talk for a long time without a point, he or she can talk for a long time but if they don't have a point, its just so much harder to listen to them next time, my brain will be on auto filter occasionally catching a word or two and forming some logic sentence. I hate to do this, getting more and more of this kind of conversation, I need to learn to tell people off, gently at first then still remain calm and be even more gentler, if not call some1 else who has more patience. Shouting is breath wasting, yelling won't make me a star or american idol.

I'm going swimming, helps me to think. C ya