!@#!#$@, just when i wanted to take a step forward in life, everything just came crashing down all at once, the timing was just wrong, all hell just broken lose. i'm very sad and disappointed. it all started last week when i was getting my workhard momentum back again, i decided to go 4 lighting ministry again, the last time i was on the wrong so they gave me so time off, and when i was ready to go 4 it again, another incident happen that causes my getting into ministry to backfire!@#!#$@#$#@......
i was playing the guitar 4 cell group when the beat just went wrong, i was partially at fault and i knew once that happen, the all knowing someone would come at me and teach me... normally i would accept it but my mood was seroiusly out so i like try to ignore him as much as i can, it was either this or send flower words over to him. i feel like he has no respect 4 me not because of this but because maybe, just maybe we got off on the wrong foot when we meet 4 the first time, so anyway, i feel his has no respect 4 me, i will submit to my leader but they should also respect me. man i'm so !@#!@$@#%...
(i pray 4 adrian that he'll learn to approach ppl better so that he can become a better leader, and that is what i wish 4 him, to be a strong and c apable leader)
the same night, on the way home, i told fel bout it and i feel like what i'm capable of doing i did not do and i let the whole world down cause this ppl are my whole world plus some exceptional ppl of course.
the next day, somehow i know that god wanted me to bring this weak side of me out and correct it, so like in 1 cor 10:13 no temptation has overtaken u except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow u to be tempted beyong what u are able, but with the temptation will alsi make the way of escape, that u may be able to bear it.
so that what God did and sent pastor to encourage me a bit...
now i'm a little calm but still am fighting with my inner self, at least i have a blog to unleash all my pain unto.
so i wish everybody to stand strong for remainder of the year and that would be all for weekly updates.
i was playing the guitar 4 cell group when the beat just went wrong, i was partially at fault and i knew once that happen, the all knowing someone would come at me and teach me... normally i would accept it but my mood was seroiusly out so i like try to ignore him as much as i can, it was either this or send flower words over to him. i feel like he has no respect 4 me not because of this but because maybe, just maybe we got off on the wrong foot when we meet 4 the first time, so anyway, i feel his has no respect 4 me, i will submit to my leader but they should also respect me. man i'm so !@#!@$@#%...
(i pray 4 adrian that he'll learn to approach ppl better so that he can become a better leader, and that is what i wish 4 him, to be a strong and c apable leader)
the same night, on the way home, i told fel bout it and i feel like what i'm capable of doing i did not do and i let the whole world down cause this ppl are my whole world plus some exceptional ppl of course.
the next day, somehow i know that god wanted me to bring this weak side of me out and correct it, so like in 1 cor 10:13 no temptation has overtaken u except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow u to be tempted beyong what u are able, but with the temptation will alsi make the way of escape, that u may be able to bear it.
so that what God did and sent pastor to encourage me a bit...
now i'm a little calm but still am fighting with my inner self, at least i have a blog to unleash all my pain unto.
so i wish everybody to stand strong for remainder of the year and that would be all for weekly updates.
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